I lay in the sun and let the warm summer breezes sweep over me. I should be relaxed- but im not; i never am. Theres always something hidden under the surface of my life, something that lies waiting for the perfect moment to stir. I think of him and my troubles begin to drift away for that moment. I can see his face- his flwaless face... his eyes stare deep into mine, just like they usd to. But this time theres a hollowness to them... they're not as endless and warm as they used to be. It seems that even you have lost all faith in me; you, the one i loved. The one i still love. But yet the one who has no idea. The one who cant see the way the shadows lurk around me. You are the only one who could ever help keep the darkness at bay- to keep me sane. And you dont know. The shadows wait for me to break again, like i did when you left. The warm sun and gentle breeze of this perfect day will hold my soal for now, but just know that when the sun sets, so will all hope that the day has given me.
So heres just a thaught...
come back to me...
and save me...
from who...
i fail to be.
